Wednesday, September 3, 2014

Struggling with acceptance

In case you haven't met me, I'm a little bit stubborn.  When I have my head and heart set a certain way, it takes a lot to change it. This has served me well in some areas (such as running) and not so well in other areas (such as relationships). 

Yesterday, during a chat with a good friend, I mentioned to her that I feel like I'm going through a phase of accepting things.  And it's not a fun one.  So today's confessions are going to be things I'm currently struggling to accept.

Vodka and Soda

I am not a fast runner. 
I know I've said it a dozen times that I'm proud of just being able to run, but man, I can't help compare my pace to other runners around me sometimes.  I'm lucky to have a 11:30-minute mile during a five-mile run.  I'm just praying I can finish my half-marathon before they close the course.  Not sure how long we'll get, but I'm starting to think I'll need a lot of it.

Just because I want something, doesn't mean I'm going to get it.
I'm not going into details on this one.  It's not a completely materialistic item.  T
here are just things I've always wanted in life that I'm now learning to accept I won't have.

I can be the nicest, funniest, sweetest person, but there will always be people who don't like me.
I try to be a good friend and a good person, but I guess that doesn't automatically garner respect or adoration.  That's a hard pill for me to swallow.  
And do I want to hear why you don't like me?  No thanks.  I can do without that.

Not everyone I meet is my friend.
This kind of goes with the item just above this.  I think I sometimes assume too much about people with whom I spend time.  I'm working on stopping those assumptions.

Staying up late might help me finish the book, but it will not help me the next day at work.
Ten years ago, I might have been able to get by on four or five hours of sleep a night.  
But my body wants at least seven now.  Preferably eight or eight and a half. 

I should not attempt to eat half a pizza all by myself.
I'm not saying I can't accomplish this feat, but I probably shouldn't.  
My metabolism is not what it used to be, and I will only feel miserable within a few hours.

When someone pays me a compliment, maybe they really mean it.
Why, thank you, Channing.

What are some things you have or had a hard time accepting?


  1. Girl, depending on the day I could have written any & all of these!

    My About Me blurb on my homepage lists me as a "wannabe runner." I try...but I'm slow and not consistent. But that's something.

  2. I'm currently reading Gone Girl and I stopped at a point last night that I probably should have just finished the book because I couldn't go to sleep thinking about it. Ugh, #readerproblems.

    I'm worried that for my half marathon they are gonna close the course too.

  3. You may be a slow runner, but at least you're still doing it! That's what matters, not speed. And I have the same problem staying up reading- I just get so wrapped up in the book that I think I can put off sleep. Never works out well in the morning!

  4. An 11:30 pace during a 5-mile run? That's faster than me! :) I struggle with feeling slow too, and comparing myself to other runners just makes me feel miserable. When I run a race, I try to keep telling myself "My race, my pace" to help me focus on me and not those passing me on all sides. Good luck with your half! I'm running my first next month and am hoping they don't have a time limit!

  5. I always eat half a pizza by myself... it's just sooo good

  6. Well, Scott and I eat a whole pizza in one sitting. So maybe that's half for each?

    I really get the "just because I want it out of life doesn't mean I'll get it". It's very hard to accept. I'm working on it.

  7. Oh, yes, the dreaded acceptance. I've had to accept that there are some things in life that aren't meant for me. And it's okay. But that doesn't mean I don't kind of wish it was different. Acceptance doesn't have to mean total submission, does it?

  8. Even if you run a 12-minute/mile race pace, you will STILL do amazing!!! I think they gave us 3 hours before they opened all the roads back up this weekend, and there were only 1,600 people, not 20,000 like back in May, so I thought I'd be last but I wasn't!!! You are gonna do great :)

    The one about people not always liking me gets me a lot. I am a people pleaser, so if someone doesn't like me I can't stand it, lol. But I'm learning to get past it.


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