Monday, May 6, 2013

Music Monday: Nathan Angelo - "Brighter Day"

If you follow me on facebook or Twitter, then you know last week ended badly for me.  For the second time in seven months, my job was eliminated.  I knew my most recent post was a contract position, but it was supposed to go through August.  Instead, it ended at 3 p.m. on Friday.  I spent most of Friday afternoon and evening crying --- not necessarily because I loved the job, but because I feel like a failure.  How does this keep happening to me? 

I'm also worried about my future.  I know how long it took me to find a job last time, and this time I don't have a severance package or much savings to help me.  I don't think I can make it four months again.  I'm so scared of creating more debt for myself.  I'm also worried about my confidence.  I don't know what my calling is anymore.  I thought I was a good writer, but being laid off twice doesn't exactly reinforce that belief.  Maybe my degree was a waste.  Maybe I made a mistake leaving newspapers (even though it was burning me out).  Maybe I don't know what I'm good at.  Maybe I'm not good at anything.

Sigh.

Help me out a little here, Nathan.


4 comments:

  1. I didn't see that, I'm so sorry! :( I hope that you find a new job soon, super soon, you deserve one! Will think happy thoughts for you!

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  2. I'm sorry girl! :( Hang in there! Have faith and hope and you will be lead to what it is you are meant to do!!!

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  3. Oh goodness. i am so sorry. I really have been there. (two years in a row my teaching job was not renewed...pretty much the equivalent of being fired in my mind) BUT it did all work out for the best in the long run, and I absolutely love the job that I have had for the past 7 years. I am sending positive vibes out there for you.

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  4. Sadly, I can relate to this all too well...I got terminated today. It was a tough, tough day. I'm crossing my fingers that all will work out & that is for the best. It's not easy though. Here's to brighter days for you & me, too!

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